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What is it like to have free time? I can't even remember what it feels like to have the smallest break. I suppose it's something similar to that one peaceful second where everything's quiet right before I slip into my nightly deep sleep brought about by exhaustion. Even with ada, Eloril, and Ortherion's help, I can barely keep up with Elrelas, Henduil, Silmalad, and Alyan. I'll be trying to teach one of them when another needs his diaper changed. I'll try to use the restroom, and all four boys will need to be fed at that exact moment. It's a constant cycle of changing jobs. Just when I begin to think everything is about to be taken care of, one more issue pops up.

I knew to expect some of this given my experience with Aravilui, Arluwen, and Amadrie, but I never realized how adding simply one more child would make the whole situation ten times harder. At least unlike the time with my triplets, I don't have worry about money or not having enough beds. The house will have just enough space to fit everyone comfortably.

Four

The past couple months have been some of the most particularly difficult ones I've faced since coming here. Not long after I received the news that I was having quadruplets, a thief broke into our house during the very late evening. Everyone else had head off to bed, but I was just about to go out to get the mail that we had forgotten about. Then, all of sudden, the alarm went off. Even after covering my ears, I still felt as if they were going to rupture.  The thief then came into sight. She seemed to be in shock, for she only stared at me and the alarm. She did run out the door a couple seconds later though.

It was after she left that all the others came rushing down the stairs. Ada and Eloril tried to follow her, but as they began to search outside they discovered there was no lead to show which way the thief had gone to. We resorted to alerting the police. Eloril dealt with making the report while the rest of us went back to bed.

Unexpected News

Once Renduil, Rion, Sidhion, and Ortherion's winter break finished, they all became very busy with school work and activities. We began to see each other less and less. That's when ada took on the role of being the one to make sure the entire family spent at least a little quality time together each day. He always had this role at home as well- even though he was the busiest out of everyone. It never mattered if all we did was sit down and talk for a couple minutes. It never mattered if ada was exhausted and stressed beyond compare. Naneth, Eloril, and I were his family, and he would not forget us for anything.

So now that ada's here and has very little to be stressed about, he's easily fallen back into that role. Some days we really only can do nothing other than sit down and talk for a couple minutes. Then there's the days where we have the almost the whole afternoon to do whatever we want. We tend to head to the small lake to skate on those particular kind of days. Though I never fall, I've been staying on shore lately just to be entirely sure that I don't do anything to hurt my baby.

I've found out that I'm having a boy again. It's a little disappointing that I'll remain the only female in the house for a while longer. However, when I see ada, Eloril, and all my sons enjoying themselves without any cares, the fact that they're male and I'm female becomes irrelevant. All I see is family.

Caught Up

As just happens some days, both Serith and Tirith's changing hormones were running rampant on the same day. It made for a rather unpleasant atmosphere between the two of them. I heard from Renduil and Rion when the four of them got home from school that my girls had been bickering with each other all day during class. I should have known it was coming, but that tension grew into one huge argument. Tirith started it off by making the wonderful decision to steal Serith's homework and copy it instead of doing the work herself.

Radiant, Pure, and Lovely

The more time that passed after ada and Leroi's encounter, the harder it became to look ada properly in the eye. Similarly to how ada knew I had children but didn't realize I was a true mother, he knew I had had intercourse but never really believed it to be reality. Now that reality is hitting him hard. He's facing the same troublesome emotions Eloril fought with, but is doing it silently. He wants to protect me so badly. He wants to keep me as that little girl from his memories forever. Then he only gets hurt more when he sees I can't ever be that girl again.

I'm almost positive that Eloril noticed what was going on even though ada and I never spoke to him about the issue. Why else would I accidentally see the two talking seriously together, and then the next time I see ada he's forcing himself as best as he can to act completely normal? He started looking me in the eye again. He also came to talk and joke with me while he watched me do my writing.