Monday, March 31, 2014

Strange Dreams


I knew it would happen one day, but even still...

I was not prepared for that moment when I finally realized Wesley was old. His aging had seemed to be happening so slowly. He had steadily been acquiring more wrinkles and had been complaining about his body hurting in greater quantities, but he simply had that kind of face that stayed youthful far past the youth it showed. I took it for granted that he would always stay that way. I really was in for a rude awakening. It should have been a more subtle transition as subtle is how it happened. I just hadn't been paying attention. When I looked at Wesley before, I saw him instead of his age. What should have been obvious escaped my notice. Then the obvious became clear all at once, and I was left sad and afraid. Wesley's years on this earth and with me were coming to an end. The vast amount of time it felt we had together was now steadily slipping away from us.

Try as I might, I could not speak of my realization to Wesley. It was too hard to get the words out of my mouth. He was well aware of what I was feeling though. He was dealing with the same emotions as I was. I started noticing small changes in his behavior. He was obsessed with dying his hair so that no gray could be seen, and he would sneak pain killers when he thought I couldn't see so he could complain less about how it was getting harder to move. Longer clothing that covered his arms and legs became his preference as he wanted to hide how thin and fragile his limbs had become. The only time he wore something sleeveless was at night when we went to bed. He liked when I would run my finger along his tattoo. It became amusing to me how I had worried he would regret getting it. Now it was a calming reminder of how all this had started, how much time we had had together, and that some small piece of me would forever remain with him when his time came.

Friday, March 28, 2014

KBS- Thistle and Twinkle (Purple)

Disclaimer: While some of KBS contain official Store items, no unofficial CC has been used SAVE for the skin which gives them their unique coloring. I use both Fawkes' 12 Skin Colors and scones' Scatter Genes. I recommend downloading both.

THISTLE Family and TWINKLE Family


Older brother Tyrian Thistle, and younger sister Midnight. Tyrian's girlfriend, Amethyst Twinkle.



Tyrian Thistle

Traits: Flirty, Loves the Outdoors, Neat, Daredevil, Ambitious

Lifetime Wish: Become an Astronaut

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Midnight Thistle

Traits: Workaholic, Easily Impressed, Dog Person

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Amethyst Twinkle

Traits: Great Kisser, Loves the Outdoors, Disciplined, Hopeless Romantic, Computer Whiz

Lifetime Wish: Golden Tongue, Golden Fingers

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KBS- Splash (Blue)

Disclaimer: While some of KBS contain official Store items, no unofficial CC has been used SAVE for the skin which gives them their unique coloring. I use both Fawkes' 12 Skin Colors and scones' Scatter Genes. I recommend downloading both.

SPLASH Family


Mother Atlantic and daughter Capri.



Atlantic Splash

Traits: Adventurous, Absent-Minded, Star Quality, Natural Cook, Nurturing

Lifetime Wish: The Culinary Librarian

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Capri Splash

Traits: Star Quality, Dramatic, Neurotic, Bookworm, Schmoozer

Lifetime Wish: Superstar Actress

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KBS- Glade (Green)

Disclaimer: While some of KBS contain official Store items, no unofficial CC has been used SAVE for the skin which gives them their unique coloring. I use both Fawkes' 12 Skin Colors and scones' Scatter Genes. I recommend downloading both.

GLADE Family


Father Pine, daughter Mint, and son Moss.



Pine Glade

Traits: Brooding, Vegetarian, Perfectionist, Family-Oriented, Nurturing

Lifetime Wish: Surrounded by Family

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Mint Glade

Traits: Adventurous, Perfectionist, Good

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Moss Glade

Traits:  Couch Potato, Good

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KBS- Swirl (Yellow)

Disclaimer: While some of KBS contain official Store items, no unofficial CC has been used SAVE for the skin which gives them their unique coloring. I use both Fawkes' 12 Skin Colors and scones' Scatter Genes. I recommend downloading both.

SWIRL Family


Parents Quince and Buttercup. Sons Jackfruit and Linden.



Quince Swirl

Traits:  Good Sense of Humor, Loser, Family-Oriented, Handy, Hydrophobic

Lifetime Wish:  Surrounded by Family

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Buttercup Swirl

Traits:  Flirty, Photographer's Eye, Vegetarian, Perceptive, Ambitious

Lifetime Wish: World Class Gallery

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Jackfruit "Jack" Swirl

Traits: Couch Potato, Excitable, Easily Impressed, Computer Whiz

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Linden Swirl

Traits:  Workaholic, Hot-Headed, Perceptive

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KBS- Craze (Orange)

Disclaimer: While some of KBS contain official Store items, no unofficial CC has been used SAVE for the skin which gives them their unique coloring. I use both Fawkes' 12 Skin Colors and scones' Scatter Genes. I recommend downloading both.

CRAZE Family


Marigold Craze

Traits: Excitable, Charismatic, Natural Cook, Kleptomanic, (Forgot the last one, sorry)

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KBS- Blush (Red)

Disclaimer: While some of KBS contain official Store items, no unofficial CC has been used SAVE for the skin which gives them their unique coloring. I use both Fawkes' 12 Skin Colors and scones' Scatter Genes. I recommend downloading both.

BLUSH Family


Fraternal twins Cardinal and Auburn.



Cardinal Blush

Traits: Frugal, Workaholic, Daredevil, Bookworm, Loves the Cold

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MediaFire (.sims3pack)
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Auburn Blush

Traits: Animal Lover, Genius, Good Sense of Humor, Great Kisser, Neurotic

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Thursday, March 27, 2014

What Next?


Thankfully for Wesley and I, Lenn was amazingly behaved right from the start. He naturally did have his naughty moments where I would find him chewing away at the couch leg or using the carpet as a toilet, but once we really dug into his training those incidents disappeared almost instantly. The only thing I had left to complain about was that he was constantly underfoot. His greatest enjoyment was following everyone around. He was so small, so I was really worried one of us might accidentally step on him. I was relieved when he began to grow, and he grew fast. It didn't take long before he reached his adult size. All of us were curious as to how he would turn out appearance-wise. It is safe to say Lenn is a mutt through and through. We couldn't even identify one dog breed he could be related to as he was such a mess of all sorts of features. His look definitely wasn't conventional, but I found him adorable nonetheless.

Monday, March 24, 2014

Dwindling


I would like to say that Wesley and I resolved our issues calmly and like rational adults after we each had some time to calm down. Unfortunately, that is not at all how things went. We went through a too long period of time where we didn't even speak. After two days passed, it became that much harder to break the silence. We eventually had no choice but to do so though. The sudden tension and negative atmosphere taking over the house was really affecting the children. They had no idea what was going on, but Wesley and I being so angry caused them to become angry simply by extension. The conversations Wesley and I had were shallow. We didn't try at all to address our issues. The only positive thing to come about was that those superficial conversations did at least get us talking, and moved us one step closer towards making an actual resolution.

That stage of our fight lasted several days. Thralas had his birthday during that time. Besides Elemir, he had been the least bothered by everything going on. That thankfully meant he was able to celebrate his special day without any worries. We took him out to the store so he could pick out his birthday present, which the children seem to enjoy more rather than being surprised with things they didn't really want. Thralas picked out a horse rocker. It was placed in the corner of his room, and I've barely seen him since as he can stay on that thing for hours.

Friday, March 14, 2014

Hidden


I got a bit worried as to where Amonost and Adonnen had gotten one afternoon after the high school students had gotten out for the day. Normally, the twins come home right away. However, Cadrier returned home alone having no idea where his brothers had gone. I tried not to panic too much. It was very unlikely something had happened, and more probably they had just wandered around for a bit. That pretty much turned out to be the case. It was such a nice day they had decided to walk home instead of taking the bus. On the way, they came across the ice cream truck. They proceeded to buy an icicle for all of us, and came home carrying them all. I would have said something about them at least giving me a short text letting me know about the delay, but the ice cream cooled my slight annoyance.

Tuesday, March 11, 2014

Changes


It certainly was a very strange several weeks that passed after that afternoon. Wesley, of course, was going to move in. It took a little time for that to happen though. He first had to sell the place he was currently at, as well as packing all his things up and dealing with other technicalities like having his address updated. I was somewhat disappointed that things didn't really change right away due to Wesley being busy. With me so nervous about the whole thing in general, delaying the plan gave me too much time to hesitate and ponder if I should back out.

Then Wesley had some spare time, and the whole family went to the summer festival. Tridia was switched between Wesley, Ris, Amonost, Adonnen, and I so we could all participate in the fun, but that day I didn't mind holding her most of the time. In fact, I preferred it. It gave me the opportunity to study that family of mine which was steadily growing closer thanks to the prospect of Wesley and I finally being together. Ris and Cadrier have always gotten along fine with Ray and Henry, but there was something about Wesley growing into a true constant presence, especially a father-like presence, that made them more energetic than usual. It was their excitement that strengthened my resolve. Amonost and Adonnen's cheerfulness at having their father move in helped as well, although not as much. "It's about time." had been their lazy blunt reaction.

Saturday, March 8, 2014

What I'm Currently Listening To

I'm bored at the moment. And when I get bored I go through the songs that I am currently addicted to. I thought it might be fun to share the three songs that are my current addictions. And yes, two of them are in Japanese. Let me know what your current favorite songs are, and I'll check them out!

#1
THROUGH MY OWN EYES- Aaron Carter and Kayla Hinkle


I love this song, and I loved the show Liberty Kids which it's from. This version is a concert recording as the full song was never released as a official recording. It's disappointing, but I'm just glad the song is available in some way.

#2
MAD HEAD LOVE- Kenshi Yonezu


I found this song through this dance cover video posted on one of the channels I'm subscribed to on YouTube. The dance is what helped me get addicted to it. Apparently MAD HEAD LOVE has sort of a sibling song called Poppin' Apathy that takes a look at the emotions from a different, more negative perspective. I haven't gotten around to listening to it yet, but I have a feeling when I do hear it that I'm going to love it just as much as I love MAD HEAD LOVE.

#3
PINKO STICK LUV- Rin Kagamine and Len Kagamine


I would read this if you're unfamiliar with the VOCALOID software and its presence in Japan.

I had heard this songs a few times before, but I didn't really like it until I found this video. Doing dance covers to Vocaloid songs is very popular in Japan. Some of the people who do covers and choreographies become mini-celebrities. This dance is done by two of my favorite popular dancers- Melochin (the guy) and Ririri (the girl). The dance is so adorable that I fell in love with the song as well.

Friday, March 7, 2014

Giving In


I really didn't mean to, but I almost forgot. Again. I thought I needed to start marking the calendar so I wouldn't have this issue anymore, and I was close to doing just that. It was simply that the household had been so calm after that crazy storm of birthday after birthday. I was enjoying the new schedule we had all fallen into, and I was looking forward to the days ahead. Then I remembered the days ahead included me having another child. By the time the realization came, my normal deadline for conception had long passed. With few options available to me, I went back to the house where Henry lived. I hoped this one particular man I had met on my previous trip there, Mr. Clifton Langston, would be willing to do a little something with me. He welcomed my advances warmly, although I did hesitate for a moment. I hadn't noticed before that he was decently older than the men I usually sleep with. I really didn't have much of a choice though.

Tuesday, March 4, 2014

It's My Birthday! (Again!)

Imagine that. Another birthday. Just thought you all should know :D

Monday, March 3, 2014

The Presence


Honestly, I pretty much forgot about the time I spent with Henry. It had been a moment that was so routine and uninteresting compared to all the highs I had experienced with Wesley, so it took the bulging of my stomach to remind me that I was carrying another child. I became excited then. My first thought was hoping to have another girl, but there was a strangely confident thought within my mind whispering over and over again that the child would be a boy. I wanted to find out to prove my hopes superior, but this was not one of the pregnancies where I would find out ahead of time. I've done a good job up until this point of keeping to the tradition I decided on. It would have been a shame to break it.

Henry ended up being excited too when he heard I was pregnant. Sort of. His excitement certainly isn't anything compared to the real excitement that had been so obvious with Wesley when I was pregnant with Amonost and Adonnen. I'm just glad Henry is willing to try though, and isn't going to shirk off his responsibilities.